Chris finds some of the answers he's looking for in a Google folder Alex left behind—and others during a conversation with someone else who loved Alex dearly.

Note: This series discusses topics that may be triggering to some listeners, including depression and suicide. If you or someone you know is having suicidal thoughts, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or text 741741 to speak to somebody immediately.

Created, written, hosted, and executive produced by Chris Stedman

Co-executive produced by Beth Anne Macaluso

Story edited by Aaron Edwards

Sound design by Dylan Fagan

Music by Aaron Wong Kaufman, with additional music by Ben Seretan

Episode 4 theme performed by Aaron Wong Kaufman, Ben Seretan, and Sadie Dupuis of Sad13

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